Saturday, June 13, 2009

This past week...

Lots and lots of drama went down. Surprise kisses, psycho ex's, and creepy stalkers. Makes you curious to hear the story... eh?

good. lol
I'm not telling though. 

OH. and i got some interesting news that shocked me last night. But all is well.. 
hmmm........ I'm exhausted. Work, work, working= gigantic pay check $$$ that i love. ♥ ♥ ♥

AH- mum's calling to head to the bank.


Friday, June 5, 2009

Summer job;;

Here we go. >

Imagine: A little teensy weensy yeller cabin. A miniature white pup.  Lots & lots of ginormous suitcases. and what do you have?

My current life.

So.. my summer job's underway. I'm kind of depressed since, well, i work at a church camp, so all my friends are coming this weekend to attend camp. While i get to clean and serve them. Joy. 
My boyfriend shall be there. My best friend/cousin. My BFFF&E/ex-boyfriend. And a whole lot of other people shall be here too. This should get interesting. Especially since i'm not single this summer. It feels kind of weird, i won't lie. 

Oh, yeah. I just cut & colored my hair. lol I, personally, think i look better... but we'll see.

Well.. the parental 'tis calling. 
Any summer jobs?


Tuesday, June 2, 2009


I'm not proud to say this, but say this, indeed, i will. The other night i had the most odd and disturbing dream about one of the world's most terrible leaders in the history of mankind. 

i had a dream about Adolph Hitler.

In it i was a Nazi. Strange and unbearable and the whole time i was one, i had the feeling that i didn't want to be but was being forced. I was one among many and we were inside a huge fortress built somewhat like a maze- at every turn of the corner, a more superior officer was there and we had to do the proper Nazi Salute. Throughout the dream, i was constantly in a panic- running to and fro trying to find friends of a certain Jewish nature. I had the strongest feeling that terrible things were in store for them and i was trying to save them. Eventually i came directly in front of Hitler himself, saluting him and getting the most nauseous feeling I've ever felt before, as i did so. Finally, as my rushing and running came to an end, i was standing face-to-face with my Jewish friends. Three in total, all in the poorest condition, and on their knees with soldiers behind and to the sides of them. As i started to say something to them, i realized i couldn't speak. I was speechless. One of them was crying; sobbing uncontrollably, another- eyes glazed over staring into a black abyss. One just simply looked back at me. Still with a lump in my throat and a couple tears in my eyes, i started to turn away to get more help. Somewhere, anything or anybody i could find to help me save my friends. As i turned, instantly. 
Shots rang in my ears.
One by one my friends were shot and i was terrified. I had no idea what to do, where to go, what to say, how to feel. I was virtually blank. And then..

i awoke.

any comments?